Day 2 All the Possibilities...

This morning I felt so refreshed, whereas yesterday I was second guessing myself of the success I would have doing this.. but now I feel nothing but great hope for the future! I worked out again this morning, so far keeping true to rule number 2, and I started reading a murder mystery novel, which is great. But all in all what is on my mind is me.

I know I am in charge of my happiness. and its up to me to pull myself out of whatever muck I am in. I am so thankful for my mother and my father my sisters and my brother! The core of my family! Yes I come from a large extended family and sometimes it can be a bit overwhelming but I have an excellent immediate family and I am so proud of all or their accomplishments. That is what its all about...support!

Support and Friendship! It is so important to have that female bond! I used to be one of those women that said.... I cant be friends with women! And you know what that is really a shame! Its not that I didn't want to be friends with women but the hurt that women put me through made it hard for me to trust them with my friendship. With that being said... why is it so easy for us (women) to forgive our male companions when they do us dirty than it is to forgive our female friends?
I have been hurt, but looking back at all the things that have made me cry it wasn't the women that was behind it all... actually in retrospect women were responsible for very few incidents that really left a mark on me. So why do we allow the men to come into our lives and separate us from those people that truly mean the world to us and have been down with us from the moment we introduced ourselves. Well no more!
I know one of the rules is I will meet new people and have new experiences... but to amend that rule I will also add that I will reconnect with those women that truly inspired me and helped me get through some difficult times! I sometimes wonder why we ever parted in the first place? It seems so silly now! Having fights because some girl looks better than you, or dresses nicer than you, or has longer hair than you do, clearer skin cuter body nicer boyfriend..... SO WHAT!!!! Don't hate on what you don't have just work with what you do!
Another thing that is a shame is when women get in relationships we tend to let the man take over so much of our time we no longer have any more for those ladies nights! God I miss ladies nights ( And no I am not talking about the ones where we put on something sexy and saunter around a darkly lit club with pervs sniffing our trail! I HATE THOSE!!!!!! But the old school sleepovers! Back then when we used to have our fuzzy slippers on good snacks and girl talk! I know every single lady just had an AWWWWWWW moment because I know you miss those.
I miss talking about our crushes... or what is cute or even the changes in our bodies as we get older (LOL) to the weather and political races even a new project or business we want to do next! I have had some of the greatest Ideas just sitting and chatting with my girl friends! And that's because women care about more than who's is bigger and who can dribble or catch a ball! I love sports don't get me wrong but It is so funny to devote all of your thinking to something so minuscule when there is so much more happening!
You know what I think about? How am I going to be the second black woman to win an Oscar and this time do it in a role that doesn't compromise my integrity as an actress? Or how am I going open up this school for underprivileged youth that never have the opportunity to express themselves healthily creatively and through art? How am I going to raise the standard of what we expect and what we will put up with so another little girl or boy doesn't have to be molested or raped or abused mentally or physically? How can I tell these women that there is another side to every situation! Meaning if you are in a really negative relationship that if you have the courage to pull yourself out there will be a positive one waiting for you. We don't have to deal with the madness just because it surrounds us!
I used to be made fun of because I marched to my own drum... I was in "Shaheerah Land" as someone once said in a malicious sort of way. But what is wrong with that? I know that there is a lot of SHIT!!!!!! I mean piles of it everywhere I look, but in my world that pile of shit is blooming roses and I just want to put some rose colored glasses on these people around me so they can see that it can one day be better. I mean we have to start from somewhere..... So why not with 365 days! How much good can you do to yourself and to your own personal environment in 1 year? I challenge you....... there are so many Possibilities